Plans! And more Plans!

Sometimes it’s good to not have a Plan B. If Plan A is all you have and it’s either make it or break it, the high stakes will put a lot more pressure on the situation and might be just what you need to make sure you succeed at Plan A. People who are determined to have a Plan B usually aren’t too privately confident in the realistic abilities of Plan A to begin with.

Well my advise, Have a little faith in yourself and ditch the contingency.

During Eid Day

This picture taken the day before Eid, manage to do some part-time job. * Trying to act cute with peace sign...hahaha

My family

my Cousin, but I HATE her mom...Crazy old Women

 

...And My Twin sister!

My Last Report!

Hey all you bloggers! Well I finally have reach my last week of Practical month, and yes thats mean I had to send my report to my lecturer, Ms C (not a real name). Last week, I discuss with her about the assignment and she said it's okay if student want to send their report two weeks after the last date of Practical month. Thank God!

Well...the bad news is I haven't finish my report yet (only 70% )and I still have two weeks to finish it. Yes I know but since I'm in the Tourism Industry, I'm getting more busier and don't even have much time to spend quality time with my family. As the result, on the day I discuss my last assignment with Ms. C, right after I left her room and walk straight to the staircase next to the door, I fell down and hurt my arm and my left leg . And more embarassing, there were too many student of ATIC and none of them have the guts to help me (...probably they don't know me? )and a security and an ATIC lecturer in culinary Art saw me and do nothing. God, this really EMBARASSING! Then I got up and calmly and say...."Thats okay, I'm alright, it was just a 'CUTE MISTAKE'."
Come to think of it, back then I must have been really crazy by saying that...hehehehe

I came back to STB and some of my colleague asked about my horrible condition, and when I told them...laughs is all I heard around me. God!
Oh well, That's life treating my on that day.

Blurr...

I am thinking of new activity for for my weekends. Suddenly I'm thinking of ....DANCING!!!





...well or maybe just concentrate on my report

Working overtime on Saturday and don't know want to do beside handling guest and give out information about place of interest in Sabah. Well it wouldn't be as bad as you'll think it is but I just went through all my overtime work schedule and guest what? I have 7 date of duty performed on my claim payment paper and I quite suprise about my commitment about my work. Well I'm not that kind like you would say "HARDWORKING" or "WORKHOLIC" but I really want to be like one!(Honestly, I not a sit-back-and-relax type of person).

Oh well...

Random Musing

I recently have been transfered to account unit in my workplace, well seems very common for any other intership but lucky for me that my CSM told me that I'm no longer a student trainee but a TEMPORARILY ATTACHMENT!!

And honestly this news really are make happy. But I haven't tell my mother or any of my family member yet because I really want to make it as a big suprise and good news for my family. And the thought eventually burned down as my uncle ( one who always take advantage on other and SELFISH JERK)might ruin all suprises and i don't even get the chance to enjoy my 'paycheque'.

Anyway,yesterday I sent a few message to my long lost Brother just want to know hows life has been treating him....well it turned out not really good actually. He said on the other day he saw my facebook page and gets really angry because of my attire on the pic. Well wearing a sleeveless gown doesn't make you a bad person!! I'm still the old me!! Well my brother have a very strong mind in religious point of view and still I respect him for that but it doesn't mean I had to become one. Talk about religious term are not really my field but hey as far as I concerned, I never wrong toward my religious view....Whatev

Dragon Year: Good or Bad

As you know that 2012 is year for the dragon.Chinese calendar the Year of 2012 is the Year of the Dragon, which begins on January 23, 2012 and ends on February 9, 2013. The Dragon is the fifth sign of the Chinese Zodiac, which consists of 12 Animal signs. The Dragon is a creature of myth and legend. In ancient China, the celestial Dragon represents an emperor and power. Today, it is the ultimate auspicious symbol signifying success and happiness.

In Sung Dynasty (a Chinese imperial dynasty lasting from AD 960 - 1279) texts, the dragon is described as having the head of an ox, muzzle of a donkey, eyes of a shrimp, horns of a deer, body of a serpent covered with fish scales, and feet of a phoenix. The dragon usually clutches a pearl symbolic of its super-natural powers. Invariably accompanied by thunder and rain, dragons move like lightning and whirlwinds - - all powerful yet totally unpredictable.

Well I heard usually people born in Dragon year always make it to the top. (Don't wether it's true or not...)But, they must be aware of that too much enthusiasm can leave them tired and unfulfilled. They find pleasure in helping others, and you can always count on their help. Even though they are willing to assist when necessary, their pride can often impede them from accepting the same kind of help from others. Their generous personalities give them the ability to attract friends, but they can be rather solitary people at heart. Their self-sufficiency can mean that they have no need for close bonds with other people.


I was born on Sheep year and according to Chinese Zodiac the year of 2015 is the year of sheep (Sigh....no luck for me this year). I was advised by my grandfather to carry this amulet at all times: Three Celestial Guardians Key Ring.This combination forms a very powerful antidote for the dreaded Three Killings or 'San Sha'.

The Three Celestial Guardians keychain is a specially designed Feng Shui cure for the Tripple Conflicts or Three Killings affliction.


It comprises of a Pi Yao, a Chi Lin and a Fu Dog. This combination forms a very powerful antidote for the dreaded Three Killings or 'San Sha'. Even by its name you will know this affliction is highly threatening and should be taken seriously. The Three Killings is an affliction that changes location every year which consists of the bad guy trio - the Year ‘Killing’ (creates setbacks and obstacles), Robbery ‘Killing’(causes monetary loss) and Disaster ‘Killing’ (brings mishaps and accidents). So by placing this unique Feng Shui cure in the sector afflicted by the Three Killings, you will be able to supress the negative chi and avert misfortunes.
This is a tips for you, for those who have an entrance, back door or large window in the afflicted sector or those who sit facing the direction opposite the afflicted sector in the office should carry this amulet so prevent misfortune related to relationships, money and reputation loss. Use it as a key ring, or clip it onto your bags for protection.

New Year Resolution

I think we can all agree: 2011 sucked. It was a big stupid year
full of big stupid things. All around, it was just stupid.


Finally, though, 2012 is just around the corner. Now, we can
pretend that 2011 never happened and look forward to the Mayan
apocalypse. (Note to Self: Mayan Apocalypse is a great name for
a metal band.)

Since 2011 was the worst year since 1993 (the year that Crystal
Pepsi was discontinued), I am going to ignore the trend that
everyone else will be jumping on. Why would I want to review the
previous year? No, I will look forward to 2012.

My list of Resolution??
1) Write 3 blog posts or more a week.
My blogging has come in spurts. Some weeks I post every day, other times I’ve gone almost a full month between posts. I hope by setting a minimum number per week that I’ll have a goal and be more faithful.

2) Ignore Crazy and Persimist person
IGNORAMUS!!!

3) Walk/ Run 500 miles (that’s about 10 miles a week).
Just four laps around my neighborhood is a 5k (3.2 miles). I plan on walking the KK City at least three times a week and plan to walk on the treadmill at the gym on the days that the weather prohibits me from walking outside. (Sometimes sport/exercise can make me feel itchy)

4) ????


Well anyway, It’s that time of year again. It seems like it arrives faster every year, but once again we have arrived at the end of one year and are about to start another. Leading up to the new year makes us reassess the year that was and begin planning our lives for the year ahead.

I just hope that us family will make a massive changes in our lives but never change as in person.


Enjoy the last day of 2011 everyone and Happy New Year!!

Quicky post!

Just Want to Post that I might not going to the climbathon....What a Shame

Please...Don't be a Facebook Hypocrite honey!

Hey all you bloggers, it's me again. Just having my nice summer and a cup of warm tea. Yes hence the title, over the past few years I have noticed a trend on Facebook that seems to be getting worse and worse. I have noticed people either pasting some chain status message about how much the love God or even writing some bold statement of what God means to them constantly. While this isn’t a bad thing what concerns me more is what you would see if you looked at the various posts that surround these professions of loving God and claiming a relationship with Him.

Not that I'm being very religious this post but sometime I think people shouldn't say anything that are related to God and that’s not something to ever take lightly. Well, I guess the point of this post is just to say this remember we are not to take the name of our God lightly or in vain. If you are going to claim Him, please live a life that honors Him and shows other’s what God has done for us, on both Facebook and in our everyday life. If you can’t do this, I beg of you leave God out of your posts don’t be the negative excuse that someone is looking for in order to justify their rejection of God.

June ...not so interesting

Hey all you blogger's, it's me again. Hopes everybody is fine this month but not for me. The nightmare has just begun after I came back from Labuan. Well did I mention about my uncle who is about getting married this end of the month? Well it was actually a good news for every couple who is about going to walk the isle but the bad news is ....he told my grandma 1 month before the date and we don't have enough time to prepare wedding stuff here ...not to mention before until next July we had to save up money for the Ramadhan and Eids coming on August.

Well I can say that June is not so interesting at all and sister Sarara was really tired because of all the work that my family pushed her to do even when she doesn't wanted to...

Happy Friday, sad Friday

Hello bloggers, good starter for today as my college is having a huge event of the year ( not prom night okay, thats sucks). Well the event is open to public and I supposed there will be many people and children around. Well it's my college OPEN DAY this coming Sunday and all student are encourage to come or participate for the event. I might not be going for the event as my group has to do some assesment of interviewing some of the public but hey since Gaya Street located in front of our college, I might pay some visit to the great big event. After all, Sunday Market is open on Sunday which same time with our event too!

Random Musing

Hello readers! Hope that you day was good enough. Bad day for today as the system down for a couples of week! Damn it!
Well what to do, just write my post temporarily in the notepad. Well on this coming Thursday our class actually might having a
minor test for Japanese 3! Kinda awsome to me but not for the rest as they kept on saying that Japanese is getting
harder and more harder(silly, of course it would be hard for you guys since some of you didn't even study).

Today we discuss about our coming mid-term for HIC( Hospitality of Innovation and Change) especially for chap.3. For me
I understand every detail about it ( had a few revision yesterday) but some of my friends don't understand the term and
theory used for the chap. ( they don't even understand what I had taught them, poor them). So we had a lillte disccusion
with our lecturer Ms Nelly George and she helped us all. Life saver of course! Well, we also did a few discussion about our
coming trip this coming March and not really quite satisfied with it. Actually I am not satisfied with the activity at night of
course! Playing Assassin-wannabe with college student I think is really childish and sorry, not even suitable for people like me!
God!!

Since I'm been really busy with assesment, co-curriculum, and etc, I might not even every active with blogs anymore
but I'll keep trying to post something every week! I hope I can do that...Hmmm
Anyway talk about post, I been thinking to something in Japanese, since I can improvise my Japanese skill, I don't think there's
something wrong with that. Everyone around the world had a new post for every single day and I hope had one that is unusual
for to see Japanese post when I refer back all my thoughts in blog.^_^

Nonsense....AGAIN?

It seems that nobody reads this anymore and my theory is that it might be because I’ve been posting in the evening instead of the morning/afternoon.
This is another sign that I’m slacking and starting to lose motivation. All very bad and I’m trying desperately to come up with something to counteract them.

For starters, I went to a writers group today for the first time. It reminded me of the creative writing class that I took in grade 10 which remains to this day, my favourite
class and the teacher is my favourite teacher ever. Moving back onto topic, we did a couple of writing exercises that really put me in the mood to write.

The first one was to write about a place that you really enjoy and immediately, this sprang to my mind.

There are two places that I go each week. The first is college and the second is home. At home, I am hounded by my mother and my siblings.

“Fatim, do your laundry!”

“Fatim, clean out the dishwasher!”
Felt like I'm bullied by others, even my family

It doesn’t vary too much other than when I’m at home alone. Then it’s me nagging myself, which is why I look forward to work...==;

Hate my life

College, life, family.....all mixed up!

Hello reader's! Well another day has passed and I don't really in the mood right now but well at least I must get to manage a post for today. Well our lecturer Ms Nelly George asked all of us about the activity for our trip again in Kundasang ( hope you guys can still remember my previous blog post on ' K stand for Kundasang'.

I don't know but someone has recommended an activity in which I think was really stupid! Playing Assasination-wannabe really inviting a trouble in the middle of the night. Am I being really 'threatening behavior' for my classmate? Well getting there soon 'cause I really can't stand each one of them actually especially the person I hate most( I've told her name on my previous blog!)

As we all discussing about the activity, I'm actually concerned about the safety of the our class. FYI the Rina D'villa Lodge was actually located in the middle of the forest 500m away from Kinabalu Park! Sorry mother earth, not that I don't like nature but sometimes surrounded with more green would make me creepy a bit.

Okay back to topic, I just pray that we'll having a good time before we saying goodbye to each other. I'm really going miss them though, eventhough they sometimes are getting on my nerve.=) Anyway, we're just solved some question of Basic research Methodology, not bad at all! Mr Defiry gave us a chance to discuss with each other. Love the eay he teach, fatherly-like lecturer. Hey, my parents has already divorced and I'm living with my mom, sometimes I really wonder what are the feeling of having a father. My very own father has been away from us since me and sister Sarara were very little.

And not to forget that I had the time to visit my friend in computer lab. Ms Rozie as she was really good person. Chatting with her for a while makes me forget about stress landing on my head this morning. But poor her as her busy life was really intense too! Entering Japanese class always makes me feel happy as each day we always learn new vocabularies and such. Looking at some of my friend pronountiation of the Japanese word
really makes me giggle a bit( Japanese is my 'food')
God, like always, family problem! I just found out that my stupid aunt just got fired from her soon-to-be-permanent job. I was like ' hell yeah, serve her right' but somewhere inside of me just feel really sympathy with her.


Ha~ this are 101 about that my aunt:
- she's very lazy kind of person
- she doesn't like us that much
- the only thing in the world she care is her stupid appearance (selfish)
- she 's in her 40's and don't even know how to cook
- 4 years ago, she angrily saying me and sister Sarara will become a fail person ( guest who the FAILURE NOW?)
- Hypocrite, nasty, dirty, not independent, etc,etc
- Typically she not what you think what a normal aunty does, she's a bitch!!( A ~ that's better)

Hey, evethough I'm maybe a threathening type but I not that bad ( really? ...Hmmm)
Some days it was hard though

Notes like a raindrops, they come from somewhere

What is it about music that can just take over us?
A song can instantly cheer you up. It can just as quickly make you sad. A lullaby will put you to sleep, when a song you love comes on the radio you just want to get up and dance! A song featuring the lyrics 'holy guacamole' just made me laughs...

It's one of the few things that everyone likes, and has an individual opinion about - and everyone 's opinion is different, and that's what is expected. In the public forum we are expected to have opinions that fall into certain categories of the argument. People often expect that if your opinion of A is B than your opinion of C must be D. And if your opinion of C is, say X , then your opinion of A couldn't possibly be B, but rather must be Z.

But with music's it's not the same. There are no constraints on the types of songs, or artists we prefer, based on what other types we prefer. Any like or dislike, and any combination of the two is perfectly acceptable. If your favorite song is a dead tie between Tchaikovsky's 'Romeo and Juliet - Fantasy Overture' and Led Zeppelin's 'Stairways to Heaven', its not only perfectly fine and normal, it might even be pretty cool. So, what is about music that we love?


Is it a message the song delivers, in lyrics for example? Is it how the sound feels resonating through your body? Is it what you see when you close your eyes? Or does it just unexplainably make you smile, and make you happy? Well, I'm not exactly sure. But I do know that everyone has a song that they will say they 'love'and they mean it. It's that one song that when they hear it, it just makes then genuinely happen, for whatever reason. It's something that will hold that a special place in your heart and that will have the same effect on you no matter when you hear it, be it in 5 minutes, or 5 years.

So, this music you love, that's so dear to your heart, where did it come from? How did you hear it? We are usually pointed to music by some source, the radio station, Pandora, a TV station, or show, any variety of websites designed to help us discover music, or even just a friend telling us. So, to leave you with a few thoughts, since you didn't find your music on you own, which has been making the decisions for you about one of the few things you are completely entitled to your individual opinion about. Think I'm full of it? Tell me how you found a song you love without any input from anyone else =)

To much to handle

Its Wednesday and it rain cats and dog in Kota Kinabalu....
Not a sunny day I guest and I keep busy with my assignment project paper
Ah ~~~ this is so frustrating! I can't even concentrate on my work
So what am I going to do? For now I think I’ll take a couple of deep breaths and get through today. Then I’ll study for the Statistic just in case... Indecisions indecisions, but I’m only 19, I’m allowed to change my mind a couple of times, right? … But for now; deep breaths and fingers crossed.

I wonder happen to the opposite of the world

Business with DBKK ...totally finish for now

Hey readers, how are you doing? Well I've been away since the Chinese New Year Celebration and I'm having so much fun. Well this week were really a headache to me and Sister Sarara plus the boys our friend....
Okay yesterday was really crazy for us since we had to go for DBKK for more info of Gaya Street Sunday Market....Argh and guest what? Instead of heading to DBKK headquaters, the person that we had make our appointment with last Monday was totally ....Stupid, Stupid...Ha~ thats better, I don't know how they do their work. Too Slow and wasting time. I hate it

I'm still on the for today post but I promise I'll you guys the rest of the event..Ciao

Letter for future me

image via google

Dear future me,
The first thing I want to start is that I hope that the life wouln't be as lousy as it is right now. So, how is it going? have you figured out what life's about yet? More importantly have you learnt to finally be happy yet?

Well, I writte this letter to you, I mean me, but a few years from now. Maybe 10 or 5 days until your 30th birthday? Well to be honest right now the fact makes me shiver...I just hope by the time you read this you will just laugh at how many things are so confusing back then. I hope you have found whatever makes you  happy and hope you'll find a way to actually accept that you always been happy.
Let me tell you if you not then you shoul a.s.a.p DON"T FORGET. Remember how everyone in here is so important to me right now. Family, friend, lecturer and everybody who once helping you when you in need. Please don't forget all this. Its precious.

See all the people you knew back then were actually doing something with their lives, while you've just figuring out what to do. Let me tell you, that even if there's no god and there's nobody watching over your back, I have expectations for you, a very high one. And shame on you if you forget, shame on you if you couldn't handle it, because I know you can. well I'm not asking you to make fortune or anything but to be happy in exchange. Do you know my deep depression right now?

Dear future me, by then you better not be chasing money. You better not be on some job you don't want to earning enough money. Believe me, I hate it. It's like living on a straight line. You better hate it too. I'll be glad, you'll be glad when you read this. If by the time you have found a way to make enough money for a house you like to live in, to buy whatever you need to live, and a little extra to enjoy, and most importantly, to support all those you love now, and you'll be love by then.



Ok then. I guest that all for now. I don't know if this is the only letter for you, or just the first one. But please don't forget who and how you were when you wrote this letter, because that's when your life really started.
I hope by the time you read this letter, you'll laugh and it'll make you happy because you've done everything I asked you and more. Hope your or our dreams travelling around Europe will be implemented. If not , WHAT THE **** ARE YOU DOING!?!?!?!?!? You better get it fixed or you better have a gut to kill yourself, because you're not worth your own life (...just kidding)

So by the time you read this letter again, you be HAPPIER than now. Oh, and write back. I want to know about your journey 10 years in the future too

Peace and love

Notes like raindrops, they come from somewhere...

What is it about music that can just take over us?
A song can instantly cheer you up. It can just as quickly make you sad. A lullaby will put you to sleep, and when a
song you love comes on the radio you just want to get up and dance! A song featuring the lyrics ‘holy guacamole’ just made me laughs.
It’s one of the few things that everyone likes, and has an individual opinion about – and everyone’s opinion is different, and that’s what is expected. In the public forum we are expected to have opinions that fall into certain categories of the argument. People often expect that if your opinion of A is B than your opinion of C must be D, and if your opinion of C is, say X, then your opinion of A couldn’t possibly be B, but rather must be Z.


But with music it’s not the same. There are no constraints on the types of songs, or artists we prefer, based on what other types we prefer.
Any like or dislike, and any combination of the two is perfectly acceptable.

If your favorite song is a dead tie between Tchaikovsky’s ‘Romeo & Juliet –Fantasy Overture’ and Led Zeppelin’s ‘Stairway to Heaven’, it’s not only perfectly fine and normal, it might even be pretty cool.So, what is about music that we love? Is it a message the song delivers, in lyrics for example? Is it how the sound feels resonating through your body? Is it what you see when you close your eyes? Or does it just unexplainably make you smile, and make you happy?


Well, I’m not exactly sure. But I do know that everyone has a song that they will say they ‘love’ and they mean it.
It’s that one song that when they hear it, it just makes them genuinely happy, for whatever reason.

It’s something that will hold that a special place in your heart and that will have the same effect on you no matter when you hear it, be it in 5 minutes, or 5 years. ...er no, not like this...

So, this music you love, that’s so dear to your heart, where did it come from? How did you hear it? We are usually pointed to music by some source, the radio station, Pandora, a TV station, or show, any variety of websites designed to help us discover music, or even just a friend telling us.


So, to leave you with a few thoughts, since you didn’t find your music on your own, which has been making the decisions for you about one of the few things you, are completely entitled to your individual opinion about? Think I’m full of it? Tell me how you found a song you love,without any input from any one else