Busy month Aug - Sept

Hey all you bloggers, yes it true that month of Aug - Sept I will be a bit busy with National Day marching practice with Sabah Tourism Board Staff, well this my first time after four years since I quit marching in high school (too many assignment and exam, had to concentrate for studies). Well some of the rules and regulation during marching I still remember and some I totally forgot!! Shame on me really..

last two days we had our practice held at Merdeka Field - and of course for the first timer in marching ....was not really synchronized. Our captain keep on yelling from afar....well. But I'm glad everybody worked their butt off and try to make everything synchronized as possible, great teamwork although some of them still make noises and sort. We still need a lot of practice before 31 August ( Malaysia National Day) as there would more than just us STB makes marching performance in which from Government to private sector will be also joining and perform marching as well.

And for September early newsflash for me...JATA, JAPAN WHOAHOOOO!!!! I feel really happy...isk isk

Okay, honestly I'm really excited for JATA event since this is will be my first time out of the country of Malaysia * YAYYYY...

I really dreamed of this since I was little girl...what was it like to be in a four season country? The culture, languages, food or traditional delicacies, Gosh I just can't wait...Well my country only have two season which is summer all year and of course monsoon. My Marketing Managers (Japan) told me last month whether I have passport and visa, of course I said no as I never been out from Sabah. Ha ~ the moment he start telling me that I'll go further from Sabah, next two days I went to the Immgration Department and apply my passport.

We'll be going on this coming September and for now just a few paperwork to be done and promotion material, banner, souvenirs and more. I keep reminding myself that we all go for bussiness trip but I STILL EXCITED and thinking this as chance for explore plus self-improvement in Japanese language and TA skills. GOSHHH...

So I'll be updating for more and post picture soon, keep on track everyone!

Been accepted

Hello all you bloggers...it's me again. Just a really short post for today and it's a great news for me. I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED TO SABAH TOURISM BOARD! YAYY! Okay there's so many things going around here but I promise I'll tell everything to all in this blog. So I hope everyone is good and have better day. Ciao~

Japanese Oral Test and future

Hello everyone, got a bad cold but nevermind...it like been awhile I haven't post anything but well living in curated life can be really challenging though....well today I have Japanese Oral test where our final oral of the year and of course the last one too! Ah~ I miss everyone already. Okay, just now Ms Akiko started with Group A and everyone feel so nerveous. Whoa, last semester and was really serious this time everyone.

All my friends are trying to memorized all the Japanese phrase and of course I thaught some of them who need helps from me hehehhe. Fun moment though but I know it wont last forever. Soon or later I had to leave all them and getting started with new people, new environment, and new life...

Anyway, this is something that is hitting home many times this year (so far)- 'Worry About The Future'. I know that this is on many people’s minds.

The universe says that what ever you think strongly about will come to you strongly and full force. From that I understand the more I worry about my future, the more I am going to make myself worry about my future in the days to come. Still, there is something unresolve that makes me hard to stand true to this logic.

I have been so worried, questioning, if I’m following the right path . If I am on the right track of my future. I look for signs every where. Maybe signs that I shouldn’t even be looking at or I am taking the sign in and giving it the wrong meaning. Life is not easy all the time but it should be easy to deal with things. The problem should come and go, making the future better.

I want to know, How do you know you’re on the right path? What feeling? What technique? what tells you that you are on the right path?

I think having a constant reminder, something that can tell you, that you are on the right path. Keep up the good work. I think many more people would be in a better place. But not me...

I guest I just have to live with the present and enjoy my life better

Writing always fun to me

Writing is used for so many different reasons in life. A person can write to express themselves in creative ways.
Or to vent their everyday frustrations and anger within negative situations. And writing is a tool that therapists
often use, as a therapeutic means for healing, with their patients. Also, writing can be used to protest wrongs
within society. Or to cheer up a friend or make someone smile.

There are plenty of ways of writing too. There’s the traditional way, of pen to paper, of scribbling in a notebook
or journal. Also “snail-mail”, handwritten letters sent back and forth between friends, relatives, or lovers.
In the electronic age, there are emails and cellphone texting. There are forums and social networking sites,
where people are writing up a storm to each other in posts. And of course there is blogging, one person expressing
there likes and dislikes (or whatever), much like this site. ;-)

There are also books being published and magazine articles being written, in the professional world of writing,
everyday.

No matter how or on what form of media a person choose to write, there are billions of people writing everyday.
And the reasons for why people choose to write are many. Sometimes the reasons are common, but sometimes not.

My reasons for writing is simple… I have been writing,
since the age of nine, when my fourth grade teacher first showed me how to put my words onto paper.
I’ve told this story a million times, whenever a person asks, “Why do you write so much?” All I can answer is,
I’ve been writing since I was a little girl, I loved it and never stopped loving it, so I continue to do it. It’s a
part of me. I have no grand aspirations for it, other than to enjoy grabbing my thoughts and imagination from my
head, and splattering them into black and white. It makes me happy and it’s a nice hobby of mine. ;-)

I never wanted to grow up and be a writer, to be honest. Writing has always been something that I enjoy doing,
but I had no desire to make into a profession. I wanted (and still wish it) to be an FBI Agent, working in the
division of bringing lost and missing children back home to their families. That was the professional career
that I’ve always wanted, to work in law enforcement to protect children. But my life didn’t quite work out in
that way…

Still, my writing is my solace and my way to express myself. I am “opinionated” and a lot of times people don’t
listen to me in person, talking right over me, ignore what I have to say. I write so that my thoughts and ideas
are not lost to me. I sometimes come back to this blog, to read over what I had written any given day, to hear
myself within the roaring sea of my life. I don’t write for an audience, to gain fame or popularity, or to please
the masses. I write for me and maybe to make my friends and family laugh. I can be a ham, if I know they’re reading!
Hi, mom! ;-)

I have added this blog to a FaceBook page, not to gain more readers. In fact,
I almost backed out of making that page and if I get a bit overwhelmed by traffic,
I can tear it down whenever I wish to. I had realized that even though I write this blog for me, me, and me,
many others have been visiting for a while now. These are strangers from all over the world and all over the US,
as my blog stats reports have it. They are respectful and silent, reading and returning to read, not leaving
a comment or making a big deal out of my random posts. Which I appreciate! Loud noises and sudden movements
tend to startle this squirrel. :-o

But, I realized that I couldn’t keep this site hidden for long.
And the more I try to, the more popular it may become, like a underground cult following of some sort.
So, I might as well put it out there a little and make it a little less special! :-p

HOWEVER, I’m still writing this blog for me only. I’m not going to hire proof-readers, change up my usual
randomness, or writing patterns to suit an audience. My posts will continue to have some bad grammar slips
and stay on my usual rantings, thoughts, and ideas as always. But, the frequency will have to change a bit.
Last season, I had a habit of posting here Monday-Friday. And I thought about going back to doing that,
come spring, but no. Even when my muse (my best friend) comes back, I simply won’t have the time to spend
writing in my blog as much, because I’m trying to get my life into shape. I’m not getting any younger and I
can’t be a slacker forever. So, for some weeks, I may go on a writing binge of Monday-Friday posts. And for
some weeks, there may be only one or two posts. Or no posts for a few weeks. It depends on my mood or what
exactly I feel compelled to share, at any given moment. So, this blog itself will be randomly written. ;-)

But back to my first point, writing can be a lot healing and self-satisfying. And there is only a few wrong
ways of using this tool. It’s important to remember that line from the movie “The Social Network”… That when
you write on the internet, what you write is in pen, not pencil. You can’t erase what you’ve expressed and it’s
stuck out there for good. So, I try to make sure that what I write is something that I don’t mean or something
that I’ll regret later. The opinions expressed here are my true ones and not subject to change.

And if I do change my mind on something, I’ll be sure to post that. But… don’t hold your breath. ;-)

Letter for future me

image via google

Dear future me,
The first thing I want to start is that I hope that the life wouln't be as lousy as it is right now. So, how is it going? have you figured out what life's about yet? More importantly have you learnt to finally be happy yet?

Well, I writte this letter to you, I mean me, but a few years from now. Maybe 10 or 5 days until your 30th birthday? Well to be honest right now the fact makes me shiver...I just hope by the time you read this you will just laugh at how many things are so confusing back then. I hope you have found whatever makes you  happy and hope you'll find a way to actually accept that you always been happy.
Let me tell you if you not then you shoul a.s.a.p DON"T FORGET. Remember how everyone in here is so important to me right now. Family, friend, lecturer and everybody who once helping you when you in need. Please don't forget all this. Its precious.

See all the people you knew back then were actually doing something with their lives, while you've just figuring out what to do. Let me tell you, that even if there's no god and there's nobody watching over your back, I have expectations for you, a very high one. And shame on you if you forget, shame on you if you couldn't handle it, because I know you can. well I'm not asking you to make fortune or anything but to be happy in exchange. Do you know my deep depression right now?

Dear future me, by then you better not be chasing money. You better not be on some job you don't want to earning enough money. Believe me, I hate it. It's like living on a straight line. You better hate it too. I'll be glad, you'll be glad when you read this. If by the time you have found a way to make enough money for a house you like to live in, to buy whatever you need to live, and a little extra to enjoy, and most importantly, to support all those you love now, and you'll be love by then.



Ok then. I guest that all for now. I don't know if this is the only letter for you, or just the first one. But please don't forget who and how you were when you wrote this letter, because that's when your life really started.
I hope by the time you read this letter, you'll laugh and it'll make you happy because you've done everything I asked you and more. Hope your or our dreams travelling around Europe will be implemented. If not , WHAT THE **** ARE YOU DOING!?!?!?!?!? You better get it fixed or you better have a gut to kill yourself, because you're not worth your own life (...just kidding)

So by the time you read this letter again, you be HAPPIER than now. Oh, and write back. I want to know about your journey 10 years in the future too

Peace and love